告诉自己，不再哭了。
让时间冲淡一切吧
我想，我可以的。
加油吧，JiN。
Monday, March 24, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
What will I be?
Days pass by, time's clicking.
I am eagerly waiting for the good news that can start off my new life. Yes, a new job which I have keen for long.
The company that I am so keen to join is now pending for some confirmations from higher management, which the result is uncertainly unknown. I have another interview on next Saturday, which I am very no confident to attend, because I don't know what kind of questions that the interviewer will shoot me again.
Life's suck, I just hope I have the opportunity to regain back what I've misplaced last time, which I've recklessly dropped it.
I am tired of this "nothing to do" life and I need to make myself busy, I need a job, I need career, I need money!
Gosh...
The pressure, is really indescribable... I just want to go back my normal simple life... no more drama, just a job, without the disturbance of so-called "drama lover" anymore.
God bless me please, Amitabha... I am waiting for the good news... still waiting..
I am eagerly waiting for the good news that can start off my new life. Yes, a new job which I have keen for long.
The company that I am so keen to join is now pending for some confirmations from higher management, which the result is uncertainly unknown. I have another interview on next Saturday, which I am very no confident to attend, because I don't know what kind of questions that the interviewer will shoot me again.
Life's suck, I just hope I have the opportunity to regain back what I've misplaced last time, which I've recklessly dropped it.
I am tired of this "nothing to do" life and I need to make myself busy, I need a job, I need career, I need money!
Gosh...
The pressure, is really indescribable... I just want to go back my normal simple life... no more drama, just a job, without the disturbance of so-called "drama lover" anymore.
God bless me please, Amitabha... I am waiting for the good news... still waiting..
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
痛
曾经有个人，
默默的在台下为我支持。
如今，没了。
全都没了，他已在为“新的舞台”而鼓掌。
心很痛，很伤，
两个月了，还隐隐作痛
你在我最需要你的时候狠狠的再推我一把
你在我最脆弱的时候又残酷的让我挨了一刀
我已不是我，
我对自己已很陌生了
多希望这不是现实
多希望这些都从没发生过
我还是会努力过我的生活
不再为你哭泣，不再为你担忧
默默的在台下为我支持。
如今，没了。
全都没了，他已在为“新的舞台”而鼓掌。
心很痛，很伤，
两个月了，还隐隐作痛
你在我最需要你的时候狠狠的再推我一把
你在我最脆弱的时候又残酷的让我挨了一刀
我已不是我，
我对自己已很陌生了
多希望这不是现实
多希望这些都从没发生过
我还是会努力过我的生活
不再为你哭泣，不再为你担忧
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Dear Jin
Dear Jin,
Hey, how do you do, pal? Are you getting better? I bet you are, but I know you are sometimes having depression still, right?
It's normal pal, nothing's wrong, you are still totally fine. Trust me, you are getting better and good things are coming to you real soon, I mean it, real soon! Don't worry too much, you need a good sleep seriously, apparently you are mentally and physically tired, rest your mind more ok?
You don't have the real laughter for quite some time already, I bet? You mates and family are all caring of you, don't you know? More positive thinking eh, throw away those negative stuffs. You know it isn't worth to keep recalling the bad memories, don't you?
Pal,
I set few goals for you these year, since your own goals for the year are not likely to be accomplished... hmm, why not you back to the basics, back to what you like.. I mean, you need a permanent job, maybe what you have used to do all this while, and also "Lesmills", perhaps you may take up Bodyattack this year if there is any intake?
Good idea? Refocus back on what you like, meanwhile you need to improve what you are passionate about.. Bodystep? I guess it will be too cruel if you decided to give it up eh? This is even more important than your ex back in those days when you were still in relationship, don't you ever think of letting it go!
Pal,
Love yourself even more now, not necessary to try to please other people already. Be yourself is the most important thing ever, you need your confidence back to get through the job interview and impress the interviewer to get the job. This is the best opportunity ever, don't let it go again!
No more thinking of committing suicide, no more! ok? Be positive! Always! You still have your family and your good friends, they are waiting for you to come back with a great smile. All the best!
I am waiting for your good news! Don't sad, be happy! Big boy doesn't cry, big boy rocks!
Love you, Jin. Talk to you again, hope by that time you are already in the best condition already!
Love,
Jin
XOXO
Hey, how do you do, pal? Are you getting better? I bet you are, but I know you are sometimes having depression still, right?
It's normal pal, nothing's wrong, you are still totally fine. Trust me, you are getting better and good things are coming to you real soon, I mean it, real soon! Don't worry too much, you need a good sleep seriously, apparently you are mentally and physically tired, rest your mind more ok?
You don't have the real laughter for quite some time already, I bet? You mates and family are all caring of you, don't you know? More positive thinking eh, throw away those negative stuffs. You know it isn't worth to keep recalling the bad memories, don't you?
Pal,
I set few goals for you these year, since your own goals for the year are not likely to be accomplished... hmm, why not you back to the basics, back to what you like.. I mean, you need a permanent job, maybe what you have used to do all this while, and also "Lesmills", perhaps you may take up Bodyattack this year if there is any intake?
Good idea? Refocus back on what you like, meanwhile you need to improve what you are passionate about.. Bodystep? I guess it will be too cruel if you decided to give it up eh? This is even more important than your ex back in those days when you were still in relationship, don't you ever think of letting it go!
Pal,
Love yourself even more now, not necessary to try to please other people already. Be yourself is the most important thing ever, you need your confidence back to get through the job interview and impress the interviewer to get the job. This is the best opportunity ever, don't let it go again!
No more thinking of committing suicide, no more! ok? Be positive! Always! You still have your family and your good friends, they are waiting for you to come back with a great smile. All the best!
I am waiting for your good news! Don't sad, be happy! Big boy doesn't cry, big boy rocks!
Love you, Jin. Talk to you again, hope by that time you are already in the best condition already!
Love,
Jin
XOXO
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
No more, just no more
Where are you, the happy-go-lucky Jin?
Where have you been? You need to come back to take over your own body again!
The bad side of Jin is overtaking your good soul soon.
The body of Jin is getting worse, he is getting even depressing.
The happy Jin, please, you need to come back to grab back what you have left out.
Love does not matter anymore, that was a bad relationship!
The good Jin, you need to know that without the bad one, you are still standing tall, you can still be the original Jin whom you used to be.
You need not to miss the bad one anymore, let bygones be bygones.
Always believe that the earth is round, whatever goes up will eventually go down in the future; vice versa.
The bad one maybe having a good time, so what? You are not part of the bad's life anymore.
You have your own life already, need not to involve the bad anymore.
Let the bad enjoys his own sweet time, you can too, why not?
The good Jin, I urge you to come back.
I miss your cheerfulness, craziness as well your smile.
Your smile is not the original one already.
Please! Jin, come back, chase away the bad.
Where have you been? You need to come back to take over your own body again!
The bad side of Jin is overtaking your good soul soon.
The body of Jin is getting worse, he is getting even depressing.
The happy Jin, please, you need to come back to grab back what you have left out.
Love does not matter anymore, that was a bad relationship!
The good Jin, you need to know that without the bad one, you are still standing tall, you can still be the original Jin whom you used to be.
You need not to miss the bad one anymore, let bygones be bygones.
Always believe that the earth is round, whatever goes up will eventually go down in the future; vice versa.
The bad one maybe having a good time, so what? You are not part of the bad's life anymore.
You have your own life already, need not to involve the bad anymore.
Let the bad enjoys his own sweet time, you can too, why not?
The good Jin, I urge you to come back.
I miss your cheerfulness, craziness as well your smile.
Your smile is not the original one already.
Please! Jin, come back, chase away the bad.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
A New Beginning Again
Half a year later, finally I'm officially an bodystep instructor in Fitness First Malaysia. Unless you are also an instructor, otherwise you wouldn't know how tough I had been through!
Since May 2012, I was attached with my mentor, Barney, I really feel honoured to have him as my mentor. He unconditionally shared a lot fitness knowledge and techniques to me. Sometimes, he acted like my mentor, quite strict and mean, sometimes we are like friends, joked and laughed around, and sometimes, he tends to fathering me a lot; giving me a lot advices and suggestions....
It was tough, seriously, to please and impress everyone, regardless my mentor or attendees. But from that, I really learned a lot. I used to be standalone kind of person, but after taking up bodystep, I tended to know more nice people out there, well of cause, I did meet some ..err... should I say.."not so good" persons...
Nothing much to write, wish me luck for being a new bodystep instructor, yay... I am no longer an "uncleared" trainee!
Since May 2012, I was attached with my mentor, Barney, I really feel honoured to have him as my mentor. He unconditionally shared a lot fitness knowledge and techniques to me. Sometimes, he acted like my mentor, quite strict and mean, sometimes we are like friends, joked and laughed around, and sometimes, he tends to fathering me a lot; giving me a lot advices and suggestions....
It was tough, seriously, to please and impress everyone, regardless my mentor or attendees. But from that, I really learned a lot. I used to be standalone kind of person, but after taking up bodystep, I tended to know more nice people out there, well of cause, I did meet some ..err... should I say.."not so good" persons...
Nothing much to write, wish me luck for being a new bodystep instructor, yay... I am no longer an "uncleared" trainee!
Saturday, June 30, 2012
It has been ages that I did not update anything right here. Well, today the emotional feeling of mine has actually brought me here. Neither I am happy nor I am sad, but it is kind of like sentimental throughout the whole day today.
What is actually on my mind is that, "different people come in and go out from your life from time to time, on and off. " Don't you actually agree with that? Picture this, a new person (regardless new family members or new friends) comes in your life, you need time to get to know the person, after a while of knowing, you are getting closer to the person (well, if you both are clicked), then after a time of period, due to some factors, they tend to leave you. This is like a life cycle: born, grow, death and then reborn.
A good friend of mine just left Malaysia and go to UK to further his studies for half a year. Well, it is not forever of cause, but it is still hard feeling. Meanwhile, today my housemate moved out as well. Although I wasn't really closed with him, but anyhow we used to talk, share and laughed together for the past a year. In these two days in a roll, I have two persons actually "went out" of my life. I wouldn't say it is forever, but still my life will be changed after this... well, I assume these leaving of these two fellows will not bring any big impact to my current life ya..
But how if someone who goes out from your life is as in "forever"? How do you feel? Well, for today as well, my friend's aunty passed away due to illness too. It is somehow pathetic that the family members will not be able to meet her anymore. This has actually made me to recall back 2 years ago, when my grandma passed away too. It is like, two months ago, you were still chatting with her, she could talk properly, and two months later, she was in coma, lied on the bed in the wad, getting leaner and skinnier, and then the subsequent day she ended her life all in sudden. Well I remember that time when my grandma just passed away, all I would think of was the gathering during Chinese New Year. It would for sure a little bit weird without the existense of my grandma. Yup, indeed...I still felt weird for the past 2 years of our CNY gathering. We were no longer going to the old kampong house anymore but we were gathered at my aunt's house. Well I seriously think that we will not go to the old kampong house anymore as our only reason to go there has already gone away, it will never be the same anymore.
Think of writing more, but you see, when you are getting older, in addition that you have not written essay for such a long time... you are actually kind of lazy to write more, as well my English command is not that good anymore... haha...
So I shall stop and perhaps I'll update on my new challenge of my life or maybe my new achievement!
I AM GOING TO A GROUP EXERCISE INSTRUCTOR! well, I am a trainee now only, but I wish I can be instructor soon... this is what I like!
See ya around soon!
XOXO
What is actually on my mind is that, "different people come in and go out from your life from time to time, on and off. " Don't you actually agree with that? Picture this, a new person (regardless new family members or new friends) comes in your life, you need time to get to know the person, after a while of knowing, you are getting closer to the person (well, if you both are clicked), then after a time of period, due to some factors, they tend to leave you. This is like a life cycle: born, grow, death and then reborn.
A good friend of mine just left Malaysia and go to UK to further his studies for half a year. Well, it is not forever of cause, but it is still hard feeling. Meanwhile, today my housemate moved out as well. Although I wasn't really closed with him, but anyhow we used to talk, share and laughed together for the past a year. In these two days in a roll, I have two persons actually "went out" of my life. I wouldn't say it is forever, but still my life will be changed after this... well, I assume these leaving of these two fellows will not bring any big impact to my current life ya..
But how if someone who goes out from your life is as in "forever"? How do you feel? Well, for today as well, my friend's aunty passed away due to illness too. It is somehow pathetic that the family members will not be able to meet her anymore. This has actually made me to recall back 2 years ago, when my grandma passed away too. It is like, two months ago, you were still chatting with her, she could talk properly, and two months later, she was in coma, lied on the bed in the wad, getting leaner and skinnier, and then the subsequent day she ended her life all in sudden. Well I remember that time when my grandma just passed away, all I would think of was the gathering during Chinese New Year. It would for sure a little bit weird without the existense of my grandma. Yup, indeed...I still felt weird for the past 2 years of our CNY gathering. We were no longer going to the old kampong house anymore but we were gathered at my aunt's house. Well I seriously think that we will not go to the old kampong house anymore as our only reason to go there has already gone away, it will never be the same anymore.
Think of writing more, but you see, when you are getting older, in addition that you have not written essay for such a long time... you are actually kind of lazy to write more, as well my English command is not that good anymore... haha...
So I shall stop and perhaps I'll update on my new challenge of my life or maybe my new achievement!
I AM GOING TO A GROUP EXERCISE INSTRUCTOR! well, I am a trainee now only, but I wish I can be instructor soon... this is what I like!
See ya around soon!
XOXO
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