告诉自己，不再哭了。
让时间冲淡一切吧
我想，我可以的。
加油吧，JiN。
Monday, March 24, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
What will I be?
Days pass by, time's clicking.
I am eagerly waiting for the good news that can start off my new life. Yes, a new job which I have keen for long.
The company that I am so keen to join is now pending for some confirmations from higher management, which the result is uncertainly unknown. I have another interview on next Saturday, which I am very no confident to attend, because I don't know what kind of questions that the interviewer will shoot me again.
Life's suck, I just hope I have the opportunity to regain back what I've misplaced last time, which I've recklessly dropped it.
I am tired of this "nothing to do" life and I need to make myself busy, I need a job, I need career, I need money!
Gosh...
The pressure, is really indescribable... I just want to go back my normal simple life... no more drama, just a job, without the disturbance of so-called "drama lover" anymore.
God bless me please, Amitabha... I am waiting for the good news... still waiting..
I am eagerly waiting for the good news that can start off my new life. Yes, a new job which I have keen for long.
The company that I am so keen to join is now pending for some confirmations from higher management, which the result is uncertainly unknown. I have another interview on next Saturday, which I am very no confident to attend, because I don't know what kind of questions that the interviewer will shoot me again.
Life's suck, I just hope I have the opportunity to regain back what I've misplaced last time, which I've recklessly dropped it.
I am tired of this "nothing to do" life and I need to make myself busy, I need a job, I need career, I need money!
Gosh...
The pressure, is really indescribable... I just want to go back my normal simple life... no more drama, just a job, without the disturbance of so-called "drama lover" anymore.
God bless me please, Amitabha... I am waiting for the good news... still waiting..
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
痛
曾经有个人，
默默的在台下为我支持。
如今，没了。
全都没了，他已在为“新的舞台”而鼓掌。
心很痛，很伤，
两个月了，还隐隐作痛
你在我最需要你的时候狠狠的再推我一把
你在我最脆弱的时候又残酷的让我挨了一刀
我已不是我，
我对自己已很陌生了
多希望这不是现实
多希望这些都从没发生过
我还是会努力过我的生活
不再为你哭泣，不再为你担忧
默默的在台下为我支持。
如今，没了。
全都没了，他已在为“新的舞台”而鼓掌。
心很痛，很伤，
两个月了，还隐隐作痛
你在我最需要你的时候狠狠的再推我一把
你在我最脆弱的时候又残酷的让我挨了一刀
我已不是我，
我对自己已很陌生了
多希望这不是现实
多希望这些都从没发生过
我还是会努力过我的生活
不再为你哭泣，不再为你担忧
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Dear Jin
Dear Jin,
Hey, how do you do, pal? Are you getting better? I bet you are, but I know you are sometimes having depression still, right?
It's normal pal, nothing's wrong, you are still totally fine. Trust me, you are getting better and good things are coming to you real soon, I mean it, real soon! Don't worry too much, you need a good sleep seriously, apparently you are mentally and physically tired, rest your mind more ok?
You don't have the real laughter for quite some time already, I bet? You mates and family are all caring of you, don't you know? More positive thinking eh, throw away those negative stuffs. You know it isn't worth to keep recalling the bad memories, don't you?
Pal,
I set few goals for you these year, since your own goals for the year are not likely to be accomplished... hmm, why not you back to the basics, back to what you like.. I mean, you need a permanent job, maybe what you have used to do all this while, and also "Lesmills", perhaps you may take up Bodyattack this year if there is any intake?
Good idea? Refocus back on what you like, meanwhile you need to improve what you are passionate about.. Bodystep? I guess it will be too cruel if you decided to give it up eh? This is even more important than your ex back in those days when you were still in relationship, don't you ever think of letting it go!
Pal,
Love yourself even more now, not necessary to try to please other people already. Be yourself is the most important thing ever, you need your confidence back to get through the job interview and impress the interviewer to get the job. This is the best opportunity ever, don't let it go again!
No more thinking of committing suicide, no more! ok? Be positive! Always! You still have your family and your good friends, they are waiting for you to come back with a great smile. All the best!
I am waiting for your good news! Don't sad, be happy! Big boy doesn't cry, big boy rocks!
Love you, Jin. Talk to you again, hope by that time you are already in the best condition already!
Love,
Jin
XOXO
Hey, how do you do, pal? Are you getting better? I bet you are, but I know you are sometimes having depression still, right?
It's normal pal, nothing's wrong, you are still totally fine. Trust me, you are getting better and good things are coming to you real soon, I mean it, real soon! Don't worry too much, you need a good sleep seriously, apparently you are mentally and physically tired, rest your mind more ok?
You don't have the real laughter for quite some time already, I bet? You mates and family are all caring of you, don't you know? More positive thinking eh, throw away those negative stuffs. You know it isn't worth to keep recalling the bad memories, don't you?
Pal,
I set few goals for you these year, since your own goals for the year are not likely to be accomplished... hmm, why not you back to the basics, back to what you like.. I mean, you need a permanent job, maybe what you have used to do all this while, and also "Lesmills", perhaps you may take up Bodyattack this year if there is any intake?
Good idea? Refocus back on what you like, meanwhile you need to improve what you are passionate about.. Bodystep? I guess it will be too cruel if you decided to give it up eh? This is even more important than your ex back in those days when you were still in relationship, don't you ever think of letting it go!
Pal,
Love yourself even more now, not necessary to try to please other people already. Be yourself is the most important thing ever, you need your confidence back to get through the job interview and impress the interviewer to get the job. This is the best opportunity ever, don't let it go again!
No more thinking of committing suicide, no more! ok? Be positive! Always! You still have your family and your good friends, they are waiting for you to come back with a great smile. All the best!
I am waiting for your good news! Don't sad, be happy! Big boy doesn't cry, big boy rocks!
Love you, Jin. Talk to you again, hope by that time you are already in the best condition already!
Love,
Jin
XOXO
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
No more, just no more
Where are you, the happy-go-lucky Jin?
Where have you been? You need to come back to take over your own body again!
The bad side of Jin is overtaking your good soul soon.
The body of Jin is getting worse, he is getting even depressing.
The happy Jin, please, you need to come back to grab back what you have left out.
Love does not matter anymore, that was a bad relationship!
The good Jin, you need to know that without the bad one, you are still standing tall, you can still be the original Jin whom you used to be.
You need not to miss the bad one anymore, let bygones be bygones.
Always believe that the earth is round, whatever goes up will eventually go down in the future; vice versa.
The bad one maybe having a good time, so what? You are not part of the bad's life anymore.
You have your own life already, need not to involve the bad anymore.
Let the bad enjoys his own sweet time, you can too, why not?
The good Jin, I urge you to come back.
I miss your cheerfulness, craziness as well your smile.
Your smile is not the original one already.
Please! Jin, come back, chase away the bad.
Where have you been? You need to come back to take over your own body again!
The bad side of Jin is overtaking your good soul soon.
The body of Jin is getting worse, he is getting even depressing.
The happy Jin, please, you need to come back to grab back what you have left out.
Love does not matter anymore, that was a bad relationship!
The good Jin, you need to know that without the bad one, you are still standing tall, you can still be the original Jin whom you used to be.
You need not to miss the bad one anymore, let bygones be bygones.
Always believe that the earth is round, whatever goes up will eventually go down in the future; vice versa.
The bad one maybe having a good time, so what? You are not part of the bad's life anymore.
You have your own life already, need not to involve the bad anymore.
Let the bad enjoys his own sweet time, you can too, why not?
The good Jin, I urge you to come back.
I miss your cheerfulness, craziness as well your smile.
Your smile is not the original one already.
Please! Jin, come back, chase away the bad.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
A New Beginning Again
Half a year later, finally I'm officially an bodystep instructor in Fitness First Malaysia. Unless you are also an instructor, otherwise you wouldn't know how tough I had been through!
Since May 2012, I was attached with my mentor, Barney, I really feel honoured to have him as my mentor. He unconditionally shared a lot fitness knowledge and techniques to me. Sometimes, he acted like my mentor, quite strict and mean, sometimes we are like friends, joked and laughed around, and sometimes, he tends to fathering me a lot; giving me a lot advices and suggestions....
It was tough, seriously, to please and impress everyone, regardless my mentor or attendees. But from that, I really learned a lot. I used to be standalone kind of person, but after taking up bodystep, I tended to know more nice people out there, well of cause, I did meet some ..err... should I say.."not so good" persons...
Nothing much to write, wish me luck for being a new bodystep instructor, yay... I am no longer an "uncleared" trainee!
Since May 2012, I was attached with my mentor, Barney, I really feel honoured to have him as my mentor. He unconditionally shared a lot fitness knowledge and techniques to me. Sometimes, he acted like my mentor, quite strict and mean, sometimes we are like friends, joked and laughed around, and sometimes, he tends to fathering me a lot; giving me a lot advices and suggestions....
It was tough, seriously, to please and impress everyone, regardless my mentor or attendees. But from that, I really learned a lot. I used to be standalone kind of person, but after taking up bodystep, I tended to know more nice people out there, well of cause, I did meet some ..err... should I say.."not so good" persons...
Nothing much to write, wish me luck for being a new bodystep instructor, yay... I am no longer an "uncleared" trainee!
Saturday, June 30, 2012
It has been ages that I did not update anything right here. Well, today the emotional feeling of mine has actually brought me here. Neither I am happy nor I am sad, but it is kind of like sentimental throughout the whole day today.
What is actually on my mind is that, "different people come in and go out from your life from time to time, on and off. " Don't you actually agree with that? Picture this, a new person (regardless new family members or new friends) comes in your life, you need time to get to know the person, after a while of knowing, you are getting closer to the person (well, if you both are clicked), then after a time of period, due to some factors, they tend to leave you. This is like a life cycle: born, grow, death and then reborn.
A good friend of mine just left Malaysia and go to UK to further his studies for half a year. Well, it is not forever of cause, but it is still hard feeling. Meanwhile, today my housemate moved out as well. Although I wasn't really closed with him, but anyhow we used to talk, share and laughed together for the past a year. In these two days in a roll, I have two persons actually "went out" of my life. I wouldn't say it is forever, but still my life will be changed after this... well, I assume these leaving of these two fellows will not bring any big impact to my current life ya..
But how if someone who goes out from your life is as in "forever"? How do you feel? Well, for today as well, my friend's aunty passed away due to illness too. It is somehow pathetic that the family members will not be able to meet her anymore. This has actually made me to recall back 2 years ago, when my grandma passed away too. It is like, two months ago, you were still chatting with her, she could talk properly, and two months later, she was in coma, lied on the bed in the wad, getting leaner and skinnier, and then the subsequent day she ended her life all in sudden. Well I remember that time when my grandma just passed away, all I would think of was the gathering during Chinese New Year. It would for sure a little bit weird without the existense of my grandma. Yup, indeed...I still felt weird for the past 2 years of our CNY gathering. We were no longer going to the old kampong house anymore but we were gathered at my aunt's house. Well I seriously think that we will not go to the old kampong house anymore as our only reason to go there has already gone away, it will never be the same anymore.
Think of writing more, but you see, when you are getting older, in addition that you have not written essay for such a long time... you are actually kind of lazy to write more, as well my English command is not that good anymore... haha...
So I shall stop and perhaps I'll update on my new challenge of my life or maybe my new achievement!
I AM GOING TO A GROUP EXERCISE INSTRUCTOR! well, I am a trainee now only, but I wish I can be instructor soon... this is what I like!
See ya around soon!
XOXO
What is actually on my mind is that, "different people come in and go out from your life from time to time, on and off. " Don't you actually agree with that? Picture this, a new person (regardless new family members or new friends) comes in your life, you need time to get to know the person, after a while of knowing, you are getting closer to the person (well, if you both are clicked), then after a time of period, due to some factors, they tend to leave you. This is like a life cycle: born, grow, death and then reborn.
A good friend of mine just left Malaysia and go to UK to further his studies for half a year. Well, it is not forever of cause, but it is still hard feeling. Meanwhile, today my housemate moved out as well. Although I wasn't really closed with him, but anyhow we used to talk, share and laughed together for the past a year. In these two days in a roll, I have two persons actually "went out" of my life. I wouldn't say it is forever, but still my life will be changed after this... well, I assume these leaving of these two fellows will not bring any big impact to my current life ya..
But how if someone who goes out from your life is as in "forever"? How do you feel? Well, for today as well, my friend's aunty passed away due to illness too. It is somehow pathetic that the family members will not be able to meet her anymore. This has actually made me to recall back 2 years ago, when my grandma passed away too. It is like, two months ago, you were still chatting with her, she could talk properly, and two months later, she was in coma, lied on the bed in the wad, getting leaner and skinnier, and then the subsequent day she ended her life all in sudden. Well I remember that time when my grandma just passed away, all I would think of was the gathering during Chinese New Year. It would for sure a little bit weird without the existense of my grandma. Yup, indeed...I still felt weird for the past 2 years of our CNY gathering. We were no longer going to the old kampong house anymore but we were gathered at my aunt's house. Well I seriously think that we will not go to the old kampong house anymore as our only reason to go there has already gone away, it will never be the same anymore.
Think of writing more, but you see, when you are getting older, in addition that you have not written essay for such a long time... you are actually kind of lazy to write more, as well my English command is not that good anymore... haha...
So I shall stop and perhaps I'll update on my new challenge of my life or maybe my new achievement!
I AM GOING TO A GROUP EXERCISE INSTRUCTOR! well, I am a trainee now only, but I wish I can be instructor soon... this is what I like!
See ya around soon!
XOXO
Thursday, January 26, 2012
我的外甥
阿智，我们王家第三代的老大，眨眼间，今年是他的第一轮了。
阿智，是我众多外甥和外甥女中感情最深的一个。因为在他还是幼儿时，我大部分时间都是和他一起度过，因为得帮阿妈照顾他的。（p/s：我姐因为要继续她的大学深造而把阿智寄放在我们老家。）
今年已是十二岁的他，坦白说，比当时十二岁的我成熟很多。连我妈和我姐都对他赞不绝口，说他是家里的好帮手，打理家里的小事物。
我姐也曾对我说，阿智很懂事，每每学校假日都会起个早身，陪他爸爸去早市批发鸡只。我姐说，阿智逐渐知道父母赚钱的辛苦了，真的很懂事。那像当时的我，为了个数码宝贝战斗机而演变成家里的小偷，偷拿我阿爸和阿妈的钱。好不孝哦~~~ *惭愧-ing*
阿智也很贴心，很为人着想。就把今天打个比喻：
我当时在洗澡，听到冲冲的步伐跑进了厕所，原来是阿智，然后他对我说：
“小舅，你快点冲好凉！我要lao sai了！”
“Har，你lao sai 管我什么事，你要用冲凉房lao sai咩？去用后面的冲凉房啦！”我喊道。
“没有啦，我怕我的粪味很臭，会飞去你那边啦，怕臭到你咯~”
我一时间无语了，觉得阿智真的长大了。不再是当时我手里怀抱着的小娃娃了。虽然不是什么大贡献，不过还是觉得很窝心。
姐夫和二姐的教养，hmmm....还不错下啦。有着一个稳重的长子。
XOXO
阿智，是我众多外甥和外甥女中感情最深的一个。因为在他还是幼儿时，我大部分时间都是和他一起度过，因为得帮阿妈照顾他的。（p/s：我姐因为要继续她的大学深造而把阿智寄放在我们老家。）
今年已是十二岁的他，坦白说，比当时十二岁的我成熟很多。连我妈和我姐都对他赞不绝口，说他是家里的好帮手，打理家里的小事物。
我姐也曾对我说，阿智很懂事，每每学校假日都会起个早身，陪他爸爸去早市批发鸡只。我姐说，阿智逐渐知道父母赚钱的辛苦了，真的很懂事。那像当时的我，为了个数码宝贝战斗机而演变成家里的小偷，偷拿我阿爸和阿妈的钱。好不孝哦~~~ *惭愧-ing*
阿智也很贴心，很为人着想。就把今天打个比喻：
我当时在洗澡，听到冲冲的步伐跑进了厕所，原来是阿智，然后他对我说：
“小舅，你快点冲好凉！我要lao sai了！”
“Har，你lao sai 管我什么事，你要用冲凉房lao sai咩？去用后面的冲凉房啦！”我喊道。
“没有啦，我怕我的粪味很臭，会飞去你那边啦，怕臭到你咯~”
我一时间无语了，觉得阿智真的长大了。不再是当时我手里怀抱着的小娃娃了。虽然不是什么大贡献，不过还是觉得很窝心。
姐夫和二姐的教养，hmmm....还不错下啦。有着一个稳重的长子。
XOXO
Monday, January 2, 2012
It's a brand new start again!
The second day of 2012, hurray! Well actually I'm currently not that exciting.
You know when years go by, and when you are getting older, you start to think indifferently in a way that you prefer something simpler, something that is more to normal, or perhaps I should say...to be low profile.
Day before the new year, I was with the one at Pavilion for our countdown, of cause we were excited about that. But come to think of that, the cheering and shouting of mine were all not coming out wholeheartedly. Perhaps it was too packed with the crowd which resulted me not really into the so-called count-down party night.
2012, I'm at the 25 already. Gosh, last time at this age, my sister was getting married and months later she delivered my eldest nephew. But me, at this age? I'm still struggling here and there, still yet to be mature enough to do crucial decisions. I guess the main reason is that I am the youngest amongst my family, which caused me to be slightly "incapable" as compared with the rest of my siblings.
Over the year of 2011, I did not achieve any big dreams of mine, everything were just normal, weren't that bad. It was somehow a crucial year of mine since I've made a crucial decision. Well I thought I would be regretting to have this kinda life at first but when time goes by, I realised that I'm wanting it so much, can't live without it anymore.... hmmm....
Nothing much to further crapping already, here is my resolutions for 2012.
You know when years go by, and when you are getting older, you start to think indifferently in a way that you prefer something simpler, something that is more to normal, or perhaps I should say...to be low profile.
Day before the new year, I was with the one at Pavilion for our countdown, of cause we were excited about that. But come to think of that, the cheering and shouting of mine were all not coming out wholeheartedly. Perhaps it was too packed with the crowd which resulted me not really into the so-called count-down party night.
2012, I'm at the 25 already. Gosh, last time at this age, my sister was getting married and months later she delivered my eldest nephew. But me, at this age? I'm still struggling here and there, still yet to be mature enough to do crucial decisions. I guess the main reason is that I am the youngest amongst my family, which caused me to be slightly "incapable" as compared with the rest of my siblings.
Over the year of 2011, I did not achieve any big dreams of mine, everything were just normal, weren't that bad. It was somehow a crucial year of mine since I've made a crucial decision. Well I thought I would be regretting to have this kinda life at first but when time goes by, I realised that I'm wanting it so much, can't live without it anymore.... hmmm....
Nothing much to further crapping already, here is my resolutions for 2012.
- To be bodystep instructor (my top list currently!)
- To get a better pay and desirable job
- Learn Japanese
- Buy a house in PJ area
- Further study Master Degree
- To improve my photography skill
- To gain weight to at least 65kg
- To be more muscular
- Knowing more good faithfully friends
- Always make good and correct decisions
Alright, I don't hope come true.... just let them come naturally lah~ :)
Happy New Year to all once again!!!
Monday, November 28, 2011
Being a runner
I joined the variety of runs since 2009, dare not to say myself is a pro-runner, yet it is so soon that I'm a runner for almost 2 years.
Not as many runs as others that I've joined, but this year is another new achievement of mine. Yesterday just finished my final run of the year - Nike Run: We Run KL 2011. It was just a 10-km run but then it means alot to me as for the first time, the one joined me for the run. Really grateful that the one literally supported me.
Still ways to go to be a tough runner, still need to improve myself regardless physically or mentally. Seriously need to train harder and tougher to run better next year!
Alright, time to show off my achievements. LOL, proudly present my finisher medals and gift. Well, what I've gotten for my Nike Run is interesting - A 1GB Pendrive with shoe outlook. LOL, that is so cute!
Not as many runs as others that I've joined, but this year is another new achievement of mine. Yesterday just finished my final run of the year - Nike Run: We Run KL 2011. It was just a 10-km run but then it means alot to me as for the first time, the one joined me for the run. Really grateful that the one literally supported me.
Still ways to go to be a tough runner, still need to improve myself regardless physically or mentally. Seriously need to train harder and tougher to run better next year!
Alright, time to show off my achievements. LOL, proudly present my finisher medals and gift. Well, what I've gotten for my Nike Run is interesting - A 1GB Pendrive with shoe outlook. LOL, that is so cute!
What can I say? 2011 runs finished! Waiting for 2012's upcoming runs~!
All the best to all of the runners... !
XOXO~
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Loser?
A black day of mine, I never felt so bad before, after I've been working in here for almost 10 months.
I was framed, yet I couldn't prove I did not do wrong. These freaking damn people were so wicked!
No doubt I'm a loser of the day, failed my CCP exam... got framed and blamed by some irrational fellows.
I just messed up the whole situation, I couldn't curb with it. I'm somemore still too new and too innocent to deal with people... or should I say, some evils..
Being vengeful isn't a good solution though, but somehow I'm going to "clear" this mess if I could! I really hope I could prove my innocent. I really hate people frame me.
Really thanked my team leader for helping me to solve the so-called "problem". If she wasn't there, I think I'm still thinking the solution... Darn!
I'm too weak.... seriously and honestly......
I was framed, yet I couldn't prove I did not do wrong. These freaking damn people were so wicked!
No doubt I'm a loser of the day, failed my CCP exam... got framed and blamed by some irrational fellows.
I just messed up the whole situation, I couldn't curb with it. I'm somemore still too new and too innocent to deal with people... or should I say, some evils..
Being vengeful isn't a good solution though, but somehow I'm going to "clear" this mess if I could! I really hope I could prove my innocent. I really hate people frame me.
Really thanked my team leader for helping me to solve the so-called "problem". If she wasn't there, I think I'm still thinking the solution... Darn!
I'm too weak.... seriously and honestly......
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Which is my right path?
It has been ages I didn't update my blog. Here I am again today, after struggling for my examination preparation for the past few weeks.
My examination was held on yesterday morning, which I suppose it should be addressed as "disaster" of mine, to be exact... a big "negligence" of mine. Alot I've been studied and revised over and over and over for uncountable times, yet ended up choosing the wrong answers! I seriously srewed up this time. Yup, certainly..... my result ... would be ..... *sigh*~
My mood isn't good these two days after the damn exam. I have no idea.... yet, thank to the one who always cheer me up when I was down... I really appreciate that.
The demotivated mood of mine suddenly raised up another query: "Am I in the right track now?" I've been thinking few times today, regardless during gym, on the way back to my house and even sat infront of my computer. I even checked out few colleges' websites for the intention of exploring, learning and studying a new field.
People used to say:"Just go for the one you are keen to..." Yup it might be as simple as people say, but when comes to the time to execute it..most of the time, most of them are reluctant to face it. My question now is that, am I brave enough to embrace my own dream?
Few weeks back, two fitness instructors of mine simultaneously asked to join the instructor program. Yet due to the exam, I precisely let go this good opportunity to explore a new field. I'm interested on it actually, yet I'm doubting whether this potential career is suitable for me. Again, another "question mark" for myself.
I am 24 this year, people used to say I am young. But come to think of it again, I'm not really that young. Wondering how many opportunities I've forgone, wondering how many opportunities yet to be obtained. I really no idea...
Gosh, resting for almost 5 days... going to be back to the reality again tomorrow.... quite demotivating somehow. Feel like tendering a resignation letter to my team leader tomorrow. LMAO! (Don't be too serious of my words, I'm still financially poor to do so.)
XOXO
My examination was held on yesterday morning, which I suppose it should be addressed as "disaster" of mine, to be exact... a big "negligence" of mine. Alot I've been studied and revised over and over and over for uncountable times, yet ended up choosing the wrong answers! I seriously srewed up this time. Yup, certainly..... my result ... would be ..... *sigh*~
My mood isn't good these two days after the damn exam. I have no idea.... yet, thank to the one who always cheer me up when I was down... I really appreciate that.
The demotivated mood of mine suddenly raised up another query: "Am I in the right track now?" I've been thinking few times today, regardless during gym, on the way back to my house and even sat infront of my computer. I even checked out few colleges' websites for the intention of exploring, learning and studying a new field.
People used to say:"Just go for the one you are keen to..." Yup it might be as simple as people say, but when comes to the time to execute it..most of the time, most of them are reluctant to face it. My question now is that, am I brave enough to embrace my own dream?
Few weeks back, two fitness instructors of mine simultaneously asked to join the instructor program. Yet due to the exam, I precisely let go this good opportunity to explore a new field. I'm interested on it actually, yet I'm doubting whether this potential career is suitable for me. Again, another "question mark" for myself.
I am 24 this year, people used to say I am young. But come to think of it again, I'm not really that young. Wondering how many opportunities I've forgone, wondering how many opportunities yet to be obtained. I really no idea...
Gosh, resting for almost 5 days... going to be back to the reality again tomorrow.... quite demotivating somehow. Feel like tendering a resignation letter to my team leader tomorrow. LMAO! (Don't be too serious of my words, I'm still financially poor to do so.)
XOXO
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
New Achievement
I guess I am not too slow to update this recent activity, well well.... I got myself a new achievement back in 3 days ago.
Remember a year ago, I mentioned in my post that I would be taking the challenge of joining half marathon if I had my adequate training, yup.... I've actually taken up this challenge days ago.
I'm not really satisfied with my result precisely, yet I was able to complete the whole run. It was tough actually, I suffered a lot regardless physically or mentally. But like someone (who joined full marathon) replied on his facebook when his mate queried him his placing in the marathon:
"Joining marathon is not about placing, but it is about the completion."
I like his answer alot, I did feel good when the time I stepped in the finish point. Although I took longer time to finish the whole run yet I appreciated the whole process of my running.
My first half-marathon - Standard Chartered Half Marathon, I spent 2 hours 45 minutes to finish the whole run. Perhaps I could do better next year if I train myself properly..
Remember a year ago, I mentioned in my post that I would be taking the challenge of joining half marathon if I had my adequate training, yup.... I've actually taken up this challenge days ago.
I'm not really satisfied with my result precisely, yet I was able to complete the whole run. It was tough actually, I suffered a lot regardless physically or mentally. But like someone (who joined full marathon) replied on his facebook when his mate queried him his placing in the marathon:
"Joining marathon is not about placing, but it is about the completion."
I like his answer alot, I did feel good when the time I stepped in the finish point. Although I took longer time to finish the whole run yet I appreciated the whole process of my running.
My first half-marathon - Standard Chartered Half Marathon, I spent 2 hours 45 minutes to finish the whole run. Perhaps I could do better next year if I train myself properly..
Once again, a bundle of thanks to my mates, family, colleagues and the one who supported me before, during and after the run. You guys really boosted up my confidence a lot. I never thought I might complete the whole 21km.
Of cause, I promise myself to perform better in next Standard Chartered Marathon or perhaps other runs held by other organisations....
XOXO
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Mom. Son. Connected.
Woke up early in this morning. I was so hesitating about the leaving moment later. Reluctantly I did the finalisation of my packing, in the hope that I wouldn't omit every single of my to-bring-back stuffs.
Got down from upstair, the first and the only person I saw in my house was my mom, who was busy to do her daily houseworks. She saw me and greeted me as usual, "Wah, today so early wo". Indeed, I had to wake up early as I had to catch up the bus later at 10a.m.
"You want to eat the fried rice now or later?" My mum questioned me.
It was a quarter past eight, it was so soon. I then answered,"Now, thank you mom"
Mom immediately prepared all the food materials and started to make me the fried rice. I was still checking and finalising the packing of mine meanwhile. Not more than 15 minutes, my breakfast was ready.
"Nah, eat it before leaving to KL. You're going to miss my food a lot. Hehe~". My mum sounded amusedly.
When I was young, I used to dislike my mum's fried rice, especially when it was treated as my breakfast. Further, my disgest system wasn't so good since I was small, therefore when I ate fried rice during morning, I would definately suffer from stomachache, to be more severe, it would be followed by diarrhea.
But now, I enjoyed the home-made fried rice alot. I named it as "Ah Booy Lovely Fried Rice".
"Ah Ma, the rice is tasty. Very nice" I was taking chance to appreciate and be grateful that I was able to eat my mum's fried rice. My mom smiled at me and I knew that she enjoying taking my compliment.
"Boy, be good when going back to KL. Don't simply waste money, not to buy so many unnecessary stuffs ya. I know your pattern, you demanded alot. From kid till now, still the same"
I shyly looked at her and said,"Ya lah, noted that. Won't do that." (Well, I don't know if I can comply with that or not)
"You are not permanently staying here anymore, mama can hardly see you often. You really have to take care outside ya!", Mom urged.
A quarter to ten, we arrived the bus terminal. I hated this moment and I hate to say goodbye to my mom, well, everytime. I was still chatting with my mom, about my working life, regarding her life, as well as others' life. In a short while, I saw the arrival of the bus.
"Wa eh bus lai liao!" (My bus arrived)
I looked at my mom, at the same time mom was trying to help me to lift my heavy backpack.
"Ma, can I hug you before I leave ah". I immediately requested.
"Oh, can can can... haha, my manja son oi~ first time you do this to me... haha, come hug~", my mom did not reject my request and eventually hug me back.
I could feel the warmth of my mom, not physically though and it was kind of melting my heart.
I boarded the double-decker, I could see my mom was still standing at the terminal, staring at me. I waved my hand to her, so did she. It was so difficult to describe that feeling, I felt like staying back, be with her and protect her. Meanwhile I have my own life in KL already.
Still, I'm lucky to have my mom, the most beloved one. I hope I can spend more time with my mom, can I?
Mum's lovely char bui~ :)
Got down from upstair, the first and the only person I saw in my house was my mom, who was busy to do her daily houseworks. She saw me and greeted me as usual, "Wah, today so early wo". Indeed, I had to wake up early as I had to catch up the bus later at 10a.m.
"You want to eat the fried rice now or later?" My mum questioned me.
It was a quarter past eight, it was so soon. I then answered,"Now, thank you mom"
Mom immediately prepared all the food materials and started to make me the fried rice. I was still checking and finalising the packing of mine meanwhile. Not more than 15 minutes, my breakfast was ready.
"Nah, eat it before leaving to KL. You're going to miss my food a lot. Hehe~". My mum sounded amusedly.
When I was young, I used to dislike my mum's fried rice, especially when it was treated as my breakfast. Further, my disgest system wasn't so good since I was small, therefore when I ate fried rice during morning, I would definately suffer from stomachache, to be more severe, it would be followed by diarrhea.
But now, I enjoyed the home-made fried rice alot. I named it as "Ah Booy Lovely Fried Rice".
"Ah Ma, the rice is tasty. Very nice" I was taking chance to appreciate and be grateful that I was able to eat my mum's fried rice. My mom smiled at me and I knew that she enjoying taking my compliment.
"Boy, be good when going back to KL. Don't simply waste money, not to buy so many unnecessary stuffs ya. I know your pattern, you demanded alot. From kid till now, still the same"
I shyly looked at her and said,"Ya lah, noted that. Won't do that." (Well, I don't know if I can comply with that or not)
"You are not permanently staying here anymore, mama can hardly see you often. You really have to take care outside ya!", Mom urged.
A quarter to ten, we arrived the bus terminal. I hated this moment and I hate to say goodbye to my mom, well, everytime. I was still chatting with my mom, about my working life, regarding her life, as well as others' life. In a short while, I saw the arrival of the bus.
"Wa eh bus lai liao!" (My bus arrived)
I looked at my mom, at the same time mom was trying to help me to lift my heavy backpack.
"Ma, can I hug you before I leave ah". I immediately requested.
"Oh, can can can... haha, my manja son oi~ first time you do this to me... haha, come hug~", my mom did not reject my request and eventually hug me back.
I could feel the warmth of my mom, not physically though and it was kind of melting my heart.
I boarded the double-decker, I could see my mom was still standing at the terminal, staring at me. I waved my hand to her, so did she. It was so difficult to describe that feeling, I felt like staying back, be with her and protect her. Meanwhile I have my own life in KL already.
Still, I'm lucky to have my mom, the most beloved one. I hope I can spend more time with my mom, can I?
Mum's lovely char bui~ :)
Monday, May 16, 2011
洗照片记
真的好久好久没过夜生活了，昨晚我就很享受独自一个人渡过我漫长的夜晚。
虽然这种生活不是很健康，但once in a blue moon, 久久一次。ok 啦~
好久没在日上三竿的时间睡醒了，今天是我踏入社会六个月以来的第一次！好爽！
刷了牙，然后就驾着车出去洗照片了。
话说我帮阿妹拍的照片获得我家人不错的评价，then我妈就托我去洗一张大张的，还有当时在新年年初二拍的全家福。
照相馆的老板的服务还不错下，不错到我有点嫌他有点鸡婆了。哈哈~
一边不停的为我拍的照片给与评价，然后一边的帮我edit我的照片。
有点不爽，也很无奈。只能在那边干笑几下。 毕竟人家也称得上“pro”吧~
两张照片就这样被印刷了出来，老板看了看着照片，又开始给评语了
“全家福拍的不错，不过下次crop要对好size。eh，这个是你姐姐啊？我认识她咧。她也是爱拍照片的hor？eh，这个也是你姐姐啊？她前几个月才在我这边买架v-cam”
我家乡真的小，随随便便就被认出来了。顿时觉得我额头上冒出了三条线。(-.-''')
接着老板就拿起了阿妹这张照片，又开始给评语了
“这张很美，妹妹很可爱。eh，你的女儿啊？”
我顿时很错愕，也及时辩解。
“没有啦，哪里有可能。我（的）外甥女啦!" （非常的尴尬）
老板笑了笑：“做么不可能？现在年轻人都很早结婚了嘛~你十九结婚，女儿也可能这么大了咯！”
还是很尴尬的我便说道：“我还没酱快啦，没有钱。呵呵~”
“看你的啦，现在玩到够先啦~三十岁过后才来结婚咯~”
这是我的照片已经被镶好了，我就跟老板点个头微微笑然后就走出了照相馆。
虽然这种生活不是很健康，但once in a blue moon, 久久一次。ok 啦~
好久没在日上三竿的时间睡醒了，今天是我踏入社会六个月以来的第一次！好爽！
刷了牙，然后就驾着车出去洗照片了。
话说我帮阿妹拍的照片获得我家人不错的评价，then我妈就托我去洗一张大张的，还有当时在新年年初二拍的全家福。
照相馆的老板的服务还不错下，不错到我有点嫌他有点鸡婆了。哈哈~
一边不停的为我拍的照片给与评价，然后一边的帮我edit我的照片。
有点不爽，也很无奈。只能在那边干笑几下。 毕竟人家也称得上“pro”吧~
两张照片就这样被印刷了出来，老板看了看着照片，又开始给评语了
“全家福拍的不错，不过下次crop要对好size。eh，这个是你姐姐啊？我认识她咧。她也是爱拍照片的hor？eh，这个也是你姐姐啊？她前几个月才在我这边买架v-cam”
我家乡真的小，随随便便就被认出来了。顿时觉得我额头上冒出了三条线。(-.-''')
接着老板就拿起了阿妹这张照片，又开始给评语了
“这张很美，妹妹很可爱。eh，你的女儿啊？”
我顿时很错愕，也及时辩解。
“没有啦，哪里有可能。我（的）外甥女啦!" （非常的尴尬）
老板笑了笑：“做么不可能？现在年轻人都很早结婚了嘛~你十九结婚，女儿也可能这么大了咯！”
还是很尴尬的我便说道：“我还没酱快啦，没有钱。呵呵~”
“看你的啦，现在玩到够先啦~三十岁过后才来结婚咯~”
这是我的照片已经被镶好了，我就跟老板点个头微微笑然后就走出了照相馆。
感想：
感觉结婚很恐怖。也还没想过会有这一天的到来。也不懂我结到婚与否。
Sunday, May 15, 2011
《阿妹拍照记》
回到老家的第二天，我拿起了我的Jojo，便问家里的那正在四处奔跑的小淘气（我的外甥女）
“妹妹，小舅帮你拍美美的照片要吗？”
然后阿妹也傻傻又天真说：“要~~”
就这样我们开始我们简单的摄影~
起初原以为要拍些比较自然的生活照，哪知道这个阿妹一听到我要拍她，
就摆起了奇奇怪怪的pose, 觉得很无奈~
叹一叹气，我就说
“妹，你躺在地上~”
这阿妹不明白我的指示，然后就真的“躺”在地上
试想，
她就躺的像个木乃鱼，然后眼神放空。
顿时，我忍不住就“噗”了一声，大笑了起来~
“妹，不是这样~转身~对这样~然后用手垫着你的下巴。对对对，是这样！” （到最后是我亲自指导）
“妹妹，小舅帮你拍美美的照片要吗？”
然后阿妹也傻傻又天真说：“要~~”
就这样我们开始我们简单的摄影~
起初原以为要拍些比较自然的生活照，哪知道这个阿妹一听到我要拍她，
就摆起了奇奇怪怪的pose, 觉得很无奈~
叹一叹气，我就说
“妹，你躺在地上~”
这阿妹不明白我的指示，然后就真的“躺”在地上
试想，
她就躺的像个木乃鱼，然后眼神放空。
顿时，我忍不住就“噗”了一声，大笑了起来~
“妹，不是这样~转身~对这样~然后用手垫着你的下巴。对对对，是这样！” （到最后是我亲自指导）
成果：
还不赖，呵呵~感谢三姐传授我photoshop的秘诀~
XOXO~ :D
Friday, May 13, 2011
A "Cin Cai" Update
It has been a while since my last update. Life of mine has been changed since I tried the new stuff. What stuff? LOL, secret!
My working days were somehow getting busier from day to day. I was stressed sometimes yet I had my good colleagues to accompany me, spent the tough time together. Thanks, LO team... :D
My weekends, mostly spent with the one. The one who assisted me alot. Appreciate that a lot :D
And there, it's time to challenge myself again whereby I've just joined the upcoming half-marathon which will be held by Standard Chartered Bank. A little bit stress anyhow but I do hope that I can be one of the finishers.
Due to the upcoming contest, I have been so keen to train and build up myself, regardless my stamina or bodyshape, in the hope that to be able to perform better during the event. I visited Fitness First almost everyday.
Well, no idea what to write now... because I am kind of wasting/spending my time while I am waiting for my flight back to Penang. My happy mood was precisely bothered by the stupid Maxis moment ago where I had to pay for additional RM200++ for my exceeded credt limit... Perhaps I should listen to the one's advice:"Let it be lah, already paid lohhh". Ya, Law of attraction says that we should use our power of attraction to attract other happiness stuffs instead of the pathetic incidents.
Holidays mood, ON! Bundles of thank to the one who supported me alot.... :)
My working days were somehow getting busier from day to day. I was stressed sometimes yet I had my good colleagues to accompany me, spent the tough time together. Thanks, LO team... :D
My weekends, mostly spent with the one. The one who assisted me alot. Appreciate that a lot :D
And there, it's time to challenge myself again whereby I've just joined the upcoming half-marathon which will be held by Standard Chartered Bank. A little bit stress anyhow but I do hope that I can be one of the finishers.
Due to the upcoming contest, I have been so keen to train and build up myself, regardless my stamina or bodyshape, in the hope that to be able to perform better during the event. I visited Fitness First almost everyday.
Well, no idea what to write now... because I am kind of wasting/spending my time while I am waiting for my flight back to Penang. My happy mood was precisely bothered by the stupid Maxis moment ago where I had to pay for additional RM200++ for my exceeded credt limit... Perhaps I should listen to the one's advice:"Let it be lah, already paid lohhh". Ya, Law of attraction says that we should use our power of attraction to attract other happiness stuffs instead of the pathetic incidents.
Holidays mood, ON! Bundles of thank to the one who supported me alot.... :)
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Limitless
And so we went to the Garden to watch movie, directionlessly we couldn't decide which movie to watch. Was thinking to watch "Source code" in the beginning but only Gold Class was only available at the moment which would cost us RM65 per person! Therefore we simply chose to watch this movie: "Limitless" in the GSC Premier Class which costed us RM23 per person. Well, finally I realised the benefit of my UOB credit card! LOL, I never realised that I could get 5% cash rebate by swiping my card in GSC Cinema! :D Then as I got accumulated RM12 cash rebate in prior, so the net pay of the tickets were only about RM16 person! LOL, worthy giler! Believe me, you would definately love Premier Class Cinema! Definately high class and comfortable! Talk about the movie, I would rate it 3 out of 5. Somehow alittle bit boring at the beginning but I quite like the storyline. Just wondering if I owned the medication that will boost up my brain-thinking, my life would be more adventurous and exciting. Yet there is always a tradeoff whereby when you are gaining something, you are abandoning something at the same time. Well again I wouldn't tell the exact story in the movie because I'm kinda lazy to narrate it. :P But moral of the story is that, we have to be self-improving from time to time. You'll be neglected or not able to keep in pace with the environmental changes if you don't keen to improve yourself. That's what I've learnt from the movie... and eh... I've recently enrolled in the banking professional paper already. I suppose it should be my self improvement. Hopefully.... And I tell myself to keep learning, regardless in my current job or other fields as well. Monday's ahead! Wish you all have a great sleep tonight and let us together overcome the upcoming challenges! ROAR! XOXO
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Brush with Fashion @ Pavilion
Thanked to the one who suggested to go to Pavilion yesterday. And also thanked to my own instinct as it kept asking me to bring my Jojo Canon out to snap around. :D It was really a coincidence when we had the chance to see this kind of contest cum fashion show. I liked the show a lot and I kind off felt like I'm the event photographer at that moment. Hehe...
These are the few photos that I personally like the most... but blaming that my photoshop skill still isn't good enough and limited one... Sigh, need someone to guide me lah~~ >.< 
XOXO
Sunday, March 27, 2011
UOB Heartbeat Run 2011
A year after the resting due to my knee injury, today I finally returned to be runner again. No more 12km or 15km which I used to join, this time I took easier challenge, the precise route that was about 7km. This charity run was precisely held by my bank, which was known as "UOB Heartbeat Run". Well well, seriously I didn't hope for good prizes yet I was hoping I could get a little recognition after the run... Gosh gosh, what a silly thought of mine. The run began at 7.30am. I started off with a slow pace at first and sooner or later, I found that the leading fellows weren't far away from my sight therefore I gradually increased my speed, in the hope of chasing or even passing them. Yup, my stamina still wasn't really good enough... rested for several times when towards the end because I was kinda exhausted at that moment already. I only able to hit top 10 and I wasn't sure about my precise place yet but I assumed that I've gotten 6th or 7th as the indian guy who was one place in prior of me during the run got the 5th place. If only I could stand longer... sigh sigh...
With Kak Zila 
My teammate, Fai Zai
With Kak Zila My teammate, Fai Zai Last but not least, my lucky star who fetched me... Thanks Jia Wen the Fei Fei
Will do better next time, perhaps next year... provided I'm still in UOB ya... haha...
XOXO
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