痛

曾经有个人，
默默的在台下为我支持。

如今，没了。
全都没了，他已在为“新的舞台”而鼓掌。

心很痛，很伤，
两个月了，还隐隐作痛
你在我最需要你的时候狠狠的再推我一把
你在我最脆弱的时候又残酷的让我挨了一刀

我已不是我，
我对自己已很陌生了
多希望这不是现实
多希望这些都从没发生过

我还是会努力过我的生活
不再为你哭泣，不再为你担忧

Dear Jin

Dear Jin,

Hey, how do you do, pal? Are you getting better? I bet you are, but I know you are sometimes having depression still, right?

It's normal pal, nothing's wrong, you are still totally fine. Trust me, you are getting better and good things are coming to you real soon, I mean it, real  soon! Don't worry too much, you need a good sleep seriously, apparently you are mentally and physically tired, rest your mind more ok?

You don't have the real laughter for quite some time already, I bet? You mates and family are all caring of you, don't you know? More positive thinking eh, throw away those negative stuffs. You know it isn't worth to keep recalling the bad memories, don't you?


Pal,

I set few goals for you these year, since your own goals for the year are not likely to be accomplished... hmm, why not you back to the basics, back to what you like.. I mean, you need a permanent job, maybe what you have used to do all this while, and also "Lesmills", perhaps you may take up Bodyattack this year if there is any intake?

Good idea? Refocus back on what you like, meanwhile you need to improve what you are passionate about.. Bodystep? I guess it will be too cruel if you decided to give it up eh? This is even more important than your ex back in those days when you were still in relationship, don't you ever think of letting it go!


Pal,

Love yourself even more now, not necessary to try to please other people already. Be yourself is the most important thing ever, you need your confidence back to get through the job interview and impress the interviewer to get the job. This is the best opportunity ever, don't let it go again!

No more thinking of committing suicide, no more! ok? Be positive! Always! You still have your family and your good friends, they are waiting for you to come back with a great smile. All the best!

I am waiting for your good news! Don't sad, be happy! Big boy doesn't cry, big boy rocks!


Love you, Jin. Talk to you again, hope by that time you are already in the best condition already!





Love,
Jin

XOXO

No more, just no more

Where are you, the happy-go-lucky Jin?
Where have you been? You need to come back to take over your own body again!
The bad side of Jin is overtaking your good soul soon.

The body of Jin is getting worse, he is getting even depressing.
The happy Jin, please, you need to come back to grab back what you have left out.

Love does not matter anymore, that was a bad relationship!
The good Jin, you need to know that without the bad one, you are still standing tall, you can still be the original Jin whom you used to be.

You need not to miss the bad one anymore, let bygones be bygones.
Always believe that the earth is round, whatever goes up will eventually go down in the future; vice versa.

The bad one maybe having a good time, so what? You are not part of the bad's life anymore.
You have your own life already, need not to involve the bad anymore.
Let the bad enjoys his own sweet time, you can too, why not?

The good Jin, I urge you to come back.
I miss your cheerfulness, craziness as well your smile.
Your smile is not the original one already.

Please! Jin, come back, chase away the bad.