The Worst Situation

That night, we were exhausted enough and started to fall asleep once we settled down ourselves. Perhaps I was too tired, therefore I slept quite tight one during that night.

Awhile later, I was bothered by someone's mumbling, not one person but few persons. I could feel someone was walking here and there beside me...I forced myself to wake up, eventhough I was still extremely sleepy... as I knew that something was wrong already.

I opened my eyes, youngest aunt was packing her stuffs, her expression looked nervous and panicked. Followed by this scene, I saw my another aunt sat still on her bed, seemed worried of something... apparently something was wrong to grandma already.

The scene was filled with the unease atmosphere... everyone's expression was the same kind - depressing and worrying one. I was trying to help them but nothing I could do for them... 3.15am, when I took out my mobile phone and it showed this crucial time...This time, my grandma was struggling a lot, she was struggling to make decision to stay or leave.....We all knew that she had a lot stuffs hadn't been settled, we all knew that she couldn't let go anyone of us...

I wanted to visit her for the very last time, but I was afraid... I didn't have the guts to look at her pale and motionless face, I couldn't accept as a truth that she would be leaving us soon.. Hence, I chose to stay in where I was staying currently instead of going to the Hospital. In a short while, my 2 aunties and one of my sisters rushed out without further delaying anymore...

I understood that we would need extra strength thereafter, and perhaps I chose to be optismistic... I had a tight slumber when the time I slept again... it was like, my grandma was calling us not to worry her...

My handphone rang during 7.15am, it was my sister who called me.

"Ah ma passed away during 6.15am..... at Teroi now..."

I took a long breathe, eventually I began to say a little prayer for her... "Amitabha"

Along the way from Penang to Kedah, we weren't in mood to chat more. We really hoped we could reach Teroi as soon as possible... we wanted to see my grandma very much.

My grandma was lying on the chair already, when the time we stepped in her house..."Namo Amitabha, Namo Amitabha...." The Buddhist melody kept on repeating and my relatives were following the melody and sang-along it...Well, this would be the only thing we could contribute to my grandma currently....

I could see my cousin was sobbing, I didn't know why.. I couldn't do that. Maybe all this while I was educated by my mother that we shouldn't be crying in front of the dead people... Wholeheartly, I worshipped for her, hoping her rest in peace in the so-called other world.....

The days before.....

I couldn't have a proper slumber on that night, simply because my mind was filled with thousands' expression of my grandma. I just couldn't stop thinking of her during the night. I missed every moment I had with her when I was still a kid. No doubt to say, she took care of me a lot when the time I stayed in Pekan Teroi.

Later, we headed back to Island Hospital again. As usual, some of my relatives were already there to keep their eyes on my grandma. In that moment, it was quite apparent that my grandma was getting weaker and weaker as compared to the day before. We would like to be optimistic one, but the situation seemed to be pessimistic enough......

We couldn't do anything but just to say a little prayer for my grandma, hoping for miracles.... Some of us were already exhausting, as it had been few days that we didn't have a proper sleep. Amongst them, my mother was the one whom contributed and sacrified the most, ever since my grandma started to sickening.

I had a long conversation with my mother while we were sitting at the corridor... She illustrated the scene when my grandma was suffered by stroke all in sudden in that particular morning....

"I woke up at 6 this morning... then I went to exercise until 6.45...grandma was in deep sleep at that moment...15 minutes later, when I went in again, I saw grandma had the symptom of stroke. She behaved so awkward and she totally couldn't talk anymore...She was struggling for something, she tried to talk but nothing can actually come out from her mouth"

I could imagine how was the scene, my mother was extremely worried and nervous.

My mother took a short breathe and then continued again,

"I couldn't carry her, I don't have the strength.....Luckily Sin Yee (my cousin) came in time, we both carried her into Sin Yee's car..."

"Grandma was still in consciousness, she showed a gesture that her back was painful.."

"In hospital, my grandma was very excited....she was trying to say something but she failed...I tried to console her by urging that we would find the greatest doctor to her...Then the next day, she couldn't wake up anymore..."

My mother sighed for awhile, and she continued again...

"The doctor told us that, grandma's brain was damaged more than 50% already... there was only 30% of chances to get recovered again.."

My mother ended our conversation by telling me that she was exhausting. Indeed, she became thinner as compared with last time.... I didn't want to bother and just let her had a good rest....

During night time, we were waiting for my uncle's arrival... who were rushing back from Germany...It was saddening when my youngest aunt told my grandma to wait for my uncle... Even though my grandma was already in unconsciousness, but she could actually hear what my aunt told her. She started to sob.... seemed like indicating us that she was heavy-hearted to let go of her current life.

I had a bad feeling...the feeling told me that my grandma wouldn't be standing longer anymore....

Totally down

It was 10.30 in the morning, someone called me while I was still sleeping. The first thing that came into my mind when I saw my sister's name appeared in my handphone screen - "Oh gosh, something's wrong~" Indeed, something was really wrong!

"Ah boy, please get ready yourself and bring more shirts, ah ma seems like in severe situation already!" My sister told me with a serious tone.

I was in panic mood at that moment, because according to my sister, my grandma's brain was damaged for more than 50% percent already. I really hoped that my grandma could get well but the current situation didn't really favourable. Hence, I worshipped wholeheartly in the hope of letting me to visit my grandma for the very last time, while she is still alive.....

We began our journey at 4 in the afternoon, I tried to ease my mood by playing my PSP... but the situation really bothered me a lot. I really hoped that all were just a joke whereby my grandma was actually awaking and very healthy one.....

Night time, we reached Penang. My mood was totally down when once I stepped in Island Hospital. The heartbeat of mine kept on increasing from time to time, it was like..... I had to sit for my exam... or pending for the release of my result....

The door of the lift opened, we walked out of it and tried to seek for the familiar faces... we saw our relatives who were standing outside one of the rooms. Their faces were all the same - depressing and serious. I quickly rushed in the room to look for my grandma.....

The scene really stunned me a lot when at first I saw my grandma, who was lying on the bed. I couldn't recognise her anymore as her face was extremely pale, her face figures changed a lot... which I totally couldn't accept it....Seeing her lying there motionless, with the mouth opened there... my tears burst out from my eyes instantly... It was really heartaching!

We tried to call her and talk to her, hoping that she could at least hear what we were talking. And once in a while, she was like giving us some indications and responses that she could actually hear what we were talking actually.

I was totally down at that moment... because few weeks ago...my grandma was still in ok-situation... but weeks after, she was already in unconsciousness.. I missed her suddenly.. I truly hoped that she could call me "ah boy" once again... but ... it was impossible already...

New Skill - Scar/Pimples removal

I've learnt a new skill from pixlr.com yesterday night, which is to remove scar or pimples from the object (human). And perhaps my laptop isn't that good enough to support the graphical stuffs, therefore I spent most of my time to redo my works.

Finally, would like to thank Sue for being my experimental white mice, and really hope that she doesn't mind of that.

Before Edited

After Edited

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Photo editor, I'm lovin' it!

Lately, just got myself started to involve in photo-editing, which previously I had no idea how to make it. The reason was simply because I had a bad taste in those colouring stuffs. :P

Yesterday, I read a Chinese magazine which are designed for those secondary students. And so coincident was that, I found these few pages that were actually to introduce the websites which are for photo-editing.

Hence, without using photoshop, I could actually edit out the photos as per below. Well, still have ways to improve but somehow I like the outcomes so much!

Last but not least, I would like to share the websites I mentioned just now.....absolutely not requiring any installation, all work online!

1. www.pixlr.com (currently using)
2. www.splashup.com (haven't tried)
3. www.tugai.net (haven't tried)
4. www.pic.sdodo.com (haven't tried)
5. www.iephotoshop.com (tried but abit tedious)
   

I guess I'm starting to be addicted in "beautifying" my photos already. That's not really a good thing because my photos aren't that pure anymore.

Tahan, Ong Chin Han~ Tahan~ :S

Financial Recession

My good-holiday-mood was bothered again! Darn it that my handphone that I've just used for less than 1 year is not functioning already!

Well, I should say... sometimes I do have kinda predictive power. Few days ago, I was attracted by my friend's new Iphone. And due to its high-tech facilities, I was amazed and eventually I voiced out something not really nice to listen (well, acted on behalf of my handphone).

I said:"oh my gosh, I think I'm going to change Iphone soon!"

I think my little handphone wasn't happy to hear it and then last 2 days, I couldn't switch it on anymore!

DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!

Apart from this,

I don't have much $$ left! Gosh, I hate to ask $$ from my dad... Sigh~

What to do? I'm lazy to find a job for myself mah~ Yoooooo~


That's it! Grrr!

Noobie's luck?

Guess what, for these continuously 2 days, I got the chance to know two pro-level photographers from my facebook.

Well, I feel kinda excited because they are just like Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise in photography field! And proud to say that, I wasn't the one who added them but they added me in prior... Is this my luck ya? I'm soooo happy!

Steven Goh

28 years old

Was interviewed by Ai Fm regarding his outsanding photoshooting

Peter Tan

Age: Unknown (but he is also a scorpio)

Uncountable awards have been won by him!

Oh my gosh, it was just like a dream of mine that suddenly two superstars become my friends! And Steven was so kind enough that answered all my noob questions regarding DSLR... and I got his msn address! Yippie!

I am soooo exciting now! :D

Money Money, come back la!

First time ever, I withdrew out such a big amount of cash (approximately RM 16k) in order for me to buy bankdraft that is precisely to pay for my University's tuition fees.

One word to describe my mood at that moment: STRESS

Hatiku berdebar-debar ketika berjalan dari CIMB Bank ke RHB Bank. Memang lah, takut tiba-tiba makhluk jahat akan merompak aku lah...

Why didn't I just request the bankdraft from CIMB Bank since my monies are all there? Simple, because it was offering a suck rate! Damn expensive lah~

And finally, I got my bankdraft and I hereby declare myself as bankruptcy... sigh, I really spent a lot for my upcoming UK study.


Well, I thought I was the one who would obtain the lowest rate... but...my friends told me that they got even lower rate than mine! Geramnya aku!!!!

Never mind then, once it is done, never regret!

Here I come, UK!!!!

Potential Sui Cha Poh

• Full Name: Lee Ruo Xuan
• D.O.B: 28/11/2006
• Gender: Female
• Place of Birth: Alor Setar

She is 4 years old this year, guess what? She has admirers in her kindergarden already, the little boys are so keen to know her and be friend with her.

In another few years, I think a lot of bees will come after her... :D

My new baby

Just got myself done a new tattoo yesterday, it is on my neck .

At least this time, I wasn't moody and I was in happy and exciting mood instead. The only I felt bad is that, I couldn't grab my chance to meet my beloved Bobo~ alright, I previous tattoo which was done by her wasn't that perfect... therefore I would rather choose a tattooist that is much more experienced than her. (sigh, sorry Bobo)

There she is, my new tattooist - Kinki, who starts her tattoo career since she was 18 years old. She was interviewed by a lot medias due to her amazing tattoo skill, as well as herself whose body is filled with bundles of tattoo. (You may view her in my facebook)

And here is my new tattoo:

If you can read mandarin words, center part is actually my surname or my family name. The outer layer of the tattoo is precisely a sun-shape tattoo. To further on, the sun represents us, the Ong siblings which consist of my 4 sisters, my brother and I. And the "Wang", indicating my daddy and mummy, who brought us here to the world!

I like this tattoo very much, well, it brings a lot meanings! Guess what, I would stop doing myself tattoo already... too soon for me to get another new one from now on... and if I do so, I think my mum will nag at me again... I think few years after la~