It has been ages that I did not update anything right here. Well, today the emotional feeling of mine has actually brought me here. Neither I am happy nor I am sad, but it is kind of like sentimental throughout the whole day today.

What is actually on my mind is that, "different people come in and go out from your life from time to time, on and off. " Don't you actually agree with that? Picture this, a new person (regardless new family members or new friends) comes in your life, you need time to get to know the person, after a while of knowing, you are getting closer to the person (well, if you both are clicked), then after a time of period, due to some factors, they tend to leave you. This is like a life cycle: born, grow, death and then reborn.

A good friend of mine just left Malaysia and go to UK to further his studies for half a year. Well, it is not forever of cause, but it is still hard feeling. Meanwhile, today my housemate moved out as well. Although I wasn't really closed with him, but anyhow we used to talk, share and laughed together for the past a year. In these two days in a roll, I have two persons actually "went out" of my life. I wouldn't say it is forever, but still my life will be changed after this... well, I assume these leaving of these two fellows will not bring any big impact to my current life ya..

But how if someone who goes out from your life is as in "forever"? How do you feel? Well, for today as well, my friend's aunty passed away due to illness too. It is somehow pathetic that the family members will not be able to meet her anymore. This has actually made me to recall back 2 years ago, when my grandma passed away too. It is like, two months ago, you were still chatting with her, she could talk properly, and two months later, she was in coma, lied on the bed in the wad, getting leaner and skinnier, and then the subsequent day she ended her life all in sudden. Well I remember that time when my grandma just passed away, all I would think of was the gathering during Chinese New Year. It would for sure a little bit weird without the existense of my grandma. Yup, indeed...I still felt weird for the past 2 years of our CNY gathering. We were no longer going to the old kampong house anymore but we were gathered at my aunt's house. Well I seriously think that we will not go to the old kampong house anymore as our only reason to go there has already gone away, it will never be the same anymore.

Think of writing more, but you see, when you are getting older, in addition that you have not written essay for such a long time... you are actually kind of lazy to write more, as well my English command is not that good anymore... haha...

So I shall stop and perhaps I'll update on my new challenge of my life or maybe my new achievement!


I AM GOING TO A GROUP EXERCISE INSTRUCTOR! well, I am a trainee now only, but I wish I can be instructor soon... this is what I like!


See ya around soon!



XOXO